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Friday, November 11, 2005
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:( I so wanna meet you, you know?
I'm in a terrible mood now.
It's been quite some time since Ignorant Friend and I decided that we're going to Italy. Everything with the tour agency is pretty much set. Now I feel like backing out. I feel like a bastard.
I wanna back out because I think it's not worth it. And seeing my parents pay so much for my trip, I feel bad. Very very bad. We'll have to pay the cancellation fees. But paying that $300 is better than paying for the full trip, going there and spending more money there. Furthermore, I really can't bear to see myself spending 11 days overseas, and then staying in Singapore for 3 days before leaving for Switzerland for another 10 days. Yea, I'm going to Switzerland with my parents.
That's why I feel so upset. I hate it that they're doing all these for me. I don't deserve anything good from them. Especially when I turned out to be pretty screwed up daughter. I don't deserve to be lucky.
But if I back out, IF will be disappointed. But she'll act like she's not very affected for the sake of me as well. And IF will have to fork out the $300 to cancel the trip. Which will probably make her dad pissed.
It sucks to be stuck.
It sucks when you know ultimately, you're the blame for everything. It sucks when you know deep down, you wanna sacrifice the trip to Italy to go Kuching. It sucks even more because you don't know if you'll be confident enough by the time you really go to Kuching.
It also sucks when you have an opportunity firmly in your hand, but you have to let it go.
I was almost determined to get rid of my tires of oil...
I changed into my sports bra and a pair of shorts. Did all kinds of lifts with my weights. Did all kinds of thigh exercise.
I'm sure you're imagining me like those females who appear on your gym/workout tapes. No, your vision is skewed. While exercising, unlike them, I didn't have that perpetual smile stuck on my face; doing every workout so effortlessly. Unlike them, I didn't have the I-can-go-on-for-another-hour! look. I didn't have the words "Come, follow me!" flowing out of my mouth. Unlike them, I didn't have the long ponytail nor the headbands nor the flat tummy.
I did try out all most of the thigh and arm excercises. But after doing 2 of each, I went on to the next one, hoping that it would be easier and less tiring.
Nonetheless, after trying out for 20min, my head's like a waterfall. Currently, my muscles are twitching spasmodically. I can't type without feeling tired.
Man...I'm feeling weak and sleepy. I can't even fart with gusto now.
Just wanna know, do you guys have problems loading my blog and must keep F5-ing until the page loads? If you do, then good 'cos it means it's most likely gotta do with Blogdrive. If you don't, then thanks, 'cos now I know my blog hates me.
SS also lah, actually. But the Mother Of Enlightenment, MOE, like to call the whole thing as Combined Humanities mah. So must treat it as one subject! SS/Geog is one subject made up of two subjects. Geddit? Good. Moe Moe will be happy. We cannot say we study 9 subjects wor! Or else make it sound like we doing more. Must say we study 8 subjects onlyyyyy! :)
Right. Today's EM paper was pretty easy. But I was careless/blur/silly. I've already lost 10 marks due to one whole question. And the stupid thing was that we were supposed to choose one out of two questions to do in Section B. I did both of them. Fortunately I still had time to check the paper. I guess...Always read the damn instructions even if you've done so for 4 years. ;)
Numa-Numa is stuck in my head. I bet I can't sleep tonight.
Worse still, the Numa-Numa that's stuck isn't the orginal one but the Jocie Guo Mei Mei's version. Yea, I think most in Singapore would have seen the so-very frequent advertisment of her new song. It's about not fearing kanasai cockroaches. She sings it with her high pitched voice and with her warped version of Numa-Numa blended in.
Initially it was the bloody Lao Shu Ai Da Mi (mouse like big rice some-dunno-what-grain-lah). I don't get it. WHY WAS EVERYONE SO INTO ITTTTTTTTTT?!?!??!?!!? It's murder-inducing dammit. Every time I hear it, I feel like drilling a hole in my head.
That's Jocie for you. She's "Yanzi No. 2". Quoted from her fan-site some site that popped out as first result when "guo mei mei" was googled.
I don't dislike/hate her. I just cannot stand her songs!!! Why oh why does she have to come up with such strange songs?! And why oh why do they have to keep playing them on TV?! Ugh. Thanks for ruining my life, JoyceJocelynJessie Jocie. Pardon me, I forgot you wanted to have a unique version of the overused names.
But I'm sure all of you agree with me that shitting is good for destressing. Oh yes. Try taking deep breaths when you shit; breathing in the scent is aromatherapy.
I'm the efficient last-minute worker. Bio exams' today and I'm looking through the notes only now. Not surprisingly, I've found evidence that I've been paying close attention to the teacher in class.
This is the original look of the baby:
This is what I did to it in another pic:
...I'm sure my Bio teacher is as proud of me as my E.Math teacher is.
Tomorrow I have Bio paperssss!! And I've not studied. :(
Ignorant Friend and I were commenting about how it's bad enough to study a week before O's. And here we are, studying a day before each subject. But I bet you'll never beat IF.
On Monday we had two papers - EM and SS. Between the 2 papers there was a 3/4-hour break. IF studied SS during that break. She studied on the day of the exam! There's something really wrong with us. Lucky her, the topic on Venice came out.
So anyway, I'm here slacking because I have this impression that I have loads of time to study. I can't rid it. I guess it's 'cos I saw that the Bio paper 1 tomorrow starts at 2pm. Which means I can study in the morning.
I wonder how I got so friggin' lazy. IF and I were laughing about how we had expected ourselves to start studying weeks before the O's. We had never thought we'd ended up like that.
I always day-dream about how it would be if I got my result slip with all A1s on it. Very shiok, I suppose. But I know on that day I'm just gonna cry. Ew.
I guess this is what you call digging your own grave.
My father's currently having shingles. According to this site, the shingles is a "very painful rash". It can also "affect any part of the body, including head and limbs". Hmm...I can't help but wonder if Big Bird can get the shingles and the jingles.
The shingles usually spread linearly around the affected area.
My father's shingles start from his back.
In Chinese we call it chu she (no no, not choo-shee but choo-shuh. It means snake comes out.) I hear of this "snake" occuring more often around the torso area. In the past, the Chinese believed that if the snake makes one round around the affected area (usually the torso), you'll die.
My mother actually believed it. She told us, "Eh, go one round will die one leh!" My father and I went, "Huh?! No lah!"
My father went to see a Chinese doctor. Family business ok. My mother visited the current doctor's grandfather when she was young. My siblings and I visited the current doctor's father (Koh Chew Kai) when we were young. Now my mother visits the current doctor (Brian Koh) for her accupuncture sessions.
We all call the doctor(s), Ah Koh in Hokkien.
My father came back with 4 majestic bottles of Chinese medicine and some stinky pills. There was also a bottle of lao sai for physical application.
Yi du gong du. Use poison to treat poison.
My father said Ah Koh Junior used lighted wicks to briefly touch his accupuncture points at the front and at the back.
