Do you have friends who just fucking refuse to bring the stuff they've held on to for ages? For almost 2 months, I've been trying to get KG to bring the stuff I left with him during summer. I've been asking him every single bloody day. He would always NOT BRING IT.
For many days I've just been greeting him with, "Please. Just bring it tomorrow. Just lift the bag off the floor when you're about to head off to school. JUST LIFT IT UP." I don't even bother to add a "hello" in front of that. These days I've just shorten the whole thing to a "Please." every time I see him.
He would go "Okok. I will tomorrow." every single time. Bloody motherf. The bag of stuff is JUST ON THE FLOOR OF THE LIVING ROOM. HE IS JUST SOOOO BLOODY LAZY TO BRING IT COS EVERY DAY SEEMS LIKE A BAD DAY TO CARRY SOMETHING EXTRA TO SCHOOL.
I think if he doesn't bring it by this week, I'm gonna make a special trip down to his remote grand bachelor's pad just to collect my stuff.
Sometimes I'm glad he's so shit. It makes getting over him so easy. It's like there is nothing to miss about him at all! Sometimes you date a guy and then even though it turns out badly, you may still miss a particular song or food you both enjoyed. With KG, there have been barely any romantic moments that even those songs that may remind me of him just bring out feelings of annoyance.
Right. Enough about him.
Can you imagine I actually trust and love - (dammit wth should I call him here?) more than I ever trusted and loved KG? But I think it's kinda scary when things are going good...It's like *insert peaceful countryside music* and then BAM! Someone gets killed.
I am very very worried for my school work. I can't remember how to study!!! And I just don't seem to f-ing care anymore!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Ok people, don't nag. Just tell me I'll be fine.
I'm still not getting proper sleep, and I'm lagging in my school work, but I'm happy to have him.
He came over last night and was appalled that all the stuff in my computer hadn't been updated. It was quite funny... "What?! Version 7.0?!" Oh, and boast-worthy news: Recently he just appeared in a local newspaper in his state, and he's gonna get a radio interview this coming Tuesday. I'm wondering if I should skip my lecture to go with him for the interview...I think I will. My boyfriend's getting interviewed by a radio station wtf!!
And he says I'm gorgeous all the bloody time. Even when I took my makeup off. Ever since AL, I've never found the confidence to meet people without some makeup. I've never really taken my makeup off in front of KG throughout those 9 months. Cos on days when I wasn't, he'd always notice and touch my marks . But with the new boyfriend (I need to give him a nickname soon), I've only met him like what...5 times? I was of course a bit worried that he'd be like AL...but wow, he wasn't at all.
Him: What? They look like freckles. They're cute. I like freckles. You're really pretty.
Me: They don't look like freckles at all. -_- They're much worse and you can't see properly cos your face is right in front of me!
Him: No...I've been looking at you the whole morning. You're still gorgeous. You don't need makeup.
I guess I should take what guys say with a pinch of salt. But you know, he hasn't run away yet and that's all that matters.
All right, I need to get work done before I go meet him again tonight.
Yesterday I went to his place and he cooked for me. His flatmates even KNOW MY NAME ALREADY WTF and said "Hi addict" when I arrived. God. KG's flatmates don't even give me a second glance.
We were in his room drinking beer (I need to cut down on the alcohol, seriously), and we had this conversation:
Me: Hm...I kinda worry whether I'm taking this too seriously.
Him: Yea? I think you don't take us seriously enough.
Me: I don't? Why do you say that?
Him: Hmm...cos you haven't changed your facebook status yet. :)
Me: :) Neither have you.
Him: I am serious about us. Are you?
Me: Yea.
Him: Do you want to go out?
Me: Yea.
Him: :)
Me: So...I'll be expecting an email notifcation from Facebook later tonight then.
(And yep, I did receive one! I've never received a relationship confirmation before!!
So-and-so said on Facebook that you two are in a relationship. We need you to confirm that you are, in fact, in a relationship with so-and-so.
To confirm this relationship request, follow the link below...)
I've not been treated so well for ages and I've not been crazy about a person so much for ages. And he remembers my birthday already. He's so cute, so geeky, so loving. Keeps asking me if I wanna go to this and that with him, keeps asking when I'm free this week.
And today, he travelled to my school for brunch with me and he crashed the lecture I had after brunch. He had school after that in the afternoon, and I was about to head home when he suggested that I go with him to his school to attend lessons with him. And so I did. Crashed two of his lectures and he decided to skip the last one. His lectures make absolutely no sense to me. It's quite scary to know that there are areas I would never ever put effort to comprehend in my whole life. Majority of the students are boys and it's quite amusing to see them noticing there's a girl in the lectures.
So now I'm back home, and trying to get my mind off him (I feel like I'm 14 or something -- it's fucking insane). I need to get down to do my work cos I have a test the day after tomorrow. I do hope I manage to get some decent rest tonight. I've not slept well for 3 days in a row thanks to him. In fact, I only slept 3 hours last night, woke up, and couldn't fall asleep again.
I just wish he wasn't so tall though...He makes me look shorter more than ever. And everybody on the streets looks/stares at us....... When I stand in front of him, my eyes are looking at his stomach. IT IS THAT RIDICULOUS. It makes me feel really self-conscious, but I just can't seem to like him any less.
So there you go. Something that seemed almost impossible but actually happened and messed my sanity up within 3 days flat.
I barely had any proper food for this weekend at all. It's incredible. Yesterday I had 2 bowls of cereal for breakfast, 6 prunes for lunch, a croissant for dinner, another bowl of cereal for supper. Today I had 1 bowl of cereal for breakfast, mi goreng for lunch, 4 prunes for dinner.
Now that I'm out of milk, the only things left in my fridge is the bag of prunes, and Heinz ketchup. I think I may just starve to death in about 3 hours. Need...more...prunes...
Wow, he really likes me. Ok, so it's only been one day. But he's very enthusiastic. I couldn't stop thinking about him either. I hope the enthusiasm would last for as long as possible. We're meeting up tomorrow, and then he's gonna come down to my area on Tuesday to catch me for brunch even though it's going to be only 2 hours before we have to part.
I don't really know what to say. Too good to be true, maybe?
Yesterday was the most interesting Saturday I've had. I said yes to an invitation to watch a performance at another school. I was really late because the whole thing was decided at the last minute + one whole f-ing train line was closed. I didn't know that until I got onto the platform and hopped onto the wrong train. Ended up changing 4 trains just to get there.
The guy who invited me was in charge of the lights and told me that the performnce would be rubbish...and yea, I guess it was quite rubbish, to be honest. It was a quite a last minute performance, put up by the freshers, and there were only 2 days to rehearse. There were probably less than 10 in the audience...haha.
Right. So about this guy. He's really sweet, but I barely know him. I've known him for like what -- 3 days? And one problem is that he lives on not-so-edible food (like unhealthy+foul-tasting things at the supermarket which are cheap even if converted to SGD), and suggested Burger King for our date. Well, he did say it's not considered a date and so it shouldn't count. But still! We didn't end up eating BK anyway...I just decided to have a croissant.
Went to his place and his housemate had a girl over...so it was almost weird/funny. We watched Mythbusters. Omg, I missed that so much. Had cans of beer and wine...and now my stomach is weird again.
He sent me home at 12ish. I'm impressed, cos the bus journey isn't short. It's about 40min? Quicker at night so I think we may have taken just 30minutes. But still...It was nice of him to send me home. (I know I shouldn't be impressed because sending a girl home is quite mandatory especially on a first meet-up, but...what can I say? It's hard to get that these days.)
Oh, the most interesting thing is that he is almost 2 metres tall... Like...fucking...Yea, 1.95 or something. He is too tall. But since he doesn't mind me being short, then who am I to complain? ;)
Me: Does it bother you that I'm so short?
Him: No..Most of the time I'm looking down at people anyway...
Me: Hahaha...Well, yea, I know what you mean. Most of the time I'm looking up at people.
We quite like each other, so...I guess something could happen from here. I'm not sure how cautious I should be, and I don't know how much I should hold back getting more emotionally-involved with him. But maybe I shouldn't worry and just like him. :)
But wait, why the fuck am I about to get into a relationship again?! I got over KG finally and completely only 5 days ago...And I was honestly enjoying the time I had to myself. I didn't mention on my blog cos I didn't wanna ruin the momentum, but yea...I went to yoga, went to dance, studied well, cooked, chatted with new people on my course. I'll still continue to do that even if this guy and I end up together, but omg...I don't want him to dump me 2 months later and then have to get over something AGAIN, you know?
I waste sooo much time on making decisions. I took almost an hour to decide what to eat today.
This is healthier... That one is cheaper... Health benefit of this outweighs the price of that... But I'm craving for this... This other thing could be delicious too, but I want something that is hot... Hot foods are expensive... I could buy from supermarkets but it'll take long for me to heat it up... Supermarket sells that cheaper, but is less healthy than the shop over there... If I'm gonna eat something unhealthy, I might as well buy what I'm craving for... Wait, it's not that cheap after all, that one is cheaper... Ok, but this cheaper option is not really what I want.. It's healthier though... What was the other thing I wanted? Damn...
A few days after Tuesday Date and I met, I realised I wasn't his friend on facebook. I casually asked him about it (ok fine, no matter how you ask aout such matters, you'd always seem a bit crazy/possessive. I tried to act casual, at least) He apologised, saying his account got hacked and even he can't log in. He then said he has contacted facebook and they said they'd take 2 weeks to fix it.
I bought that and simply said it's okay. I kinda decided that I wouldn't be bothered even if he didn't add me back. He didn't.
Just, KG decided to be annoying and come by my place. He was going to his friend's place initially. This friend of his lives near me but since he was not home yet, KG decided to stay at my place until he calls. I've realised something: Every time I become cold towards KG, he comes back and tries to get my attention. He even wanted a (friend) hug before leaving. I refused.
Anyway, the point is that while KG was here, he logged into his facebook. After he left, his account was still logged in. I decided to stalk Tuesday Date using his account (since Tuesday Date is his facebook friend).
And then I saw something:
Tuesday Date is in a relationship with xxxx
and his profile pic was a neoprint of him and his girlfriend.
...
KNN.
That new relationship info was put up just this week. But:
1. I stalked his gf too, and found out that she's studying in his home country.
2. Neoprint booths are only easily found in Asian countries.
3. More photos of them in their home countries in other people's photos which look like some old school gathering.
Based on simple logic, one can easily infer that they got together while Tuesday Date was still in his home country, ie. beforewe went on Tuesday's date.
With that, I conclude that I got my ass (slightly) touched for nothing. But he's not that much of a bastard because hey, at least he's publicly announcing that he's in a relationship with someone and obviously likes/respects her enough to put their photo up. So him holding my hands and (slightly) touching my ass was probably just a moment of him being silly that night. And he's human enough to not lead me on after that.
Once you date guys who...
- put their statuses as single even after dating for many months (read: KG),
or
- hide their relationship with you even from close friends (read: KG),
or
- love themselves too many times more than they love you (read: KG)
...you lower your standards so much that you can actually respect a guy as long as he doesn't do all that, even if he took mild advantage of you.
In other news, I think the f-ing supermarket cheated 50 cents from me for the chocolate I bought.
